A letter to a junior

Dear Tyrene,

Good day. I know you are not my blog reader -- perhaps you only read its blog. Yes, is "its". I don't think a homosapien could be actually so heartless and can have no mercy in committing its sins. Of course, when things comes to an animal, everything can be explained. Animal has no elaborative faculty and they do things according to their instinct at that moment. And for your case, obviously, sex is topping its priority. And it definately needs different sex partner to fulfill its requirement.

I didn't reply your message that you sent to me this afternoon. I meant to do it. I feel so tired to be your mama anymore. I owe you nothing, and I don't feel I want to do it anymore. You are fucking helpless for listen to none of the advices I had gave to you. You are the most fucking reckless person I had ever seen before, too. You have no fucking idea how fed up I am on you. And I think on top of everything, I should just leave you alone and see what's gonna happen to you this poor little sucker -- I'll wait and see till when you are going to enjoy suck the animal's tits or balls or whatever it have; or maybe it will not let you suck it anymore, cause I think the expired date for its sex partnet is simply over on you. You are EX for it now.

Can't you figure out what's happening out there by yourself? Even everything are so obvious, so vivid until a level that even my grani could tell that it is telling you that it is so over you right now. That feature is not meant for you, can't you see it? Damn you. I can't think of anything worse than being your friend now. When I say it -- which I mean post in my blog, I meant it. You are simply nothing but a patient and love waster: waste of my true heartly care and brotherly love for you. Fuck you, girl.

It choose to hit the club with its congener, rather than go to you and tell you why it is missing for those days when you need it around you. It purposely missing for the entired week and not to reply any of your calls and your messages, and it told you that it has no more credit in its phone. Haha, reasonable. Despite the fact that it is studying in the most expensive college in the entired Subang area, it has its own car and able to feed the car constently in order to ensure it won't miss any of the clubbing time, and also he has internet connection in his home -- his reason is actually so convictive. Fuck it again and again, as you wish, ayte? I am seriously fucking can't understand why you just can't get over this fucking bastard. What's so good about it? Smallest tits you had ever seen before, or the tiniest cock you had ever taste that make you can't leave it alone? Tell me when you have the answer in your tiny mind -- or you can just ignore me and keep on with your fascinating and beautific platonic love story. Just make sure none of them are going to get into my eardrum again. Never ever.

You choose to make yourself so cheap. That's what you did. You walk all the way from Kelana Jaya to its place in Shah Alam. And you asked me to tell it that you are doing it. So what? You try to make it realise anything? "Oh, Tyrene is being so nice to me. I should just go back to her and we will be happily ever after." "Oh, Tyrene is so cute. I will not abandon her anymore." Is this what you hope from it? Haha, Happy Valentine.

Just fuck off from my live. I won't give a damn anymore. You are wasting my energy to being nice to you. And so sorry, I will feel bore sometimes. With this, I end my letter. Fuck both of you.

Best rgds,
Anderson

ner? nee?

not long ago, Cray told me this...

"Since trainer will train the trainee, employer will employ the employee, should the FUCKER FUCK THE FUCKEE?"


Pengsan=.=

you can judge better than me

I have to say, I'm not that type of people who can put his arrogant down and apology for whatever I have done-- whether I did it wrong or not.

So, if any misunderstanding happened, I will never be the first one to give up. I am a bitch. I love war. I hate to say this, but I'm seriously SUCKS.

Whatever I have done, just don't take me seriously, I will never get offensed -- although that seems to show on my face -- that's just my way of being friendly to you. Only to friend I really know I can make joke with, I will let myself be free and do anything that I think is suitable for that period of time -- regardless of the consequence. I'm just being funny -- in my very own way -- to show how I appreciate the friendship.

I won't say sorry. That's just so not me.
Fuck you.

"If the boy don't love you right now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you"
neverevernevereverNever Ever, Ciara

U r tougher than u think

"Last time when your dad is away, i can never sleep well in the night. When there's any noices out of the window, I will open my eye and started to wander around and try to make sure the room is safe--or at least my kids are safe around me. It was the toughest time in my life."

That is what being said by my auntie. I can see there's still some terrified eyes in her. The fear of being alone, without the man in the house.

Wife without husband, a women without a man, just for few days.

My mum had been practised this for years. Till now, 10 years.
And the years still on count.

I wonder how many strength are there in her small body. Strength to withstand the loneliness; strength to do the husband's work; strength to be a mum, and a dad as well. How strong she can be?

When the bulbs in the room were spoiled, how she fixed it when she don't even know how to take them off?

When the tyres of the car were leak, how she fixed it when she barely know how to drive car?

When the letter from government arrived, how she read them when she don't even know the letter is for who?

I wonder how she did it. When dad was not with us.
I wonder how she felt. When we were so young to help her in anything.
I wonder how she get through all those days.

Mum, I love you.

Cherry Blossom

I realise that i'm getting more n more reluctant to write something to describe some event that happened in my daily life and i feel that i have no good opening for any of them so i guess that is the reason i seldom talk about what happen in my life which leads to my non-stop mumble and non-sense posts in the last few posts but now i finally get some clue to keep update with my blog and i need not to thinkof any kind of fancy words to grab u all' attention that is to post the picture alone.

Anyway...i must say something about this....this is the sexiest chick ever alive in my uni...damn sizzling hot right???

My Exam Time-table

18 April 2009: Ethics MidYear
22 April 2009: Physics Topic Test
28 April 2009: Biology Topic Test
29 April 2009: Mathematics Topic Test
11-14 May 2009: Mid Year Examination


I'm dying...someone rescue me pls :P

mumble

i wish to hav a girl friend before the age of 24, and she will be the women who i will be marry to at the end of the day.

she must be caring.
she must love my family, just as much as she does to her own family.
she must love kids.

we will hav 2 kids.
1 boy.
1 girl.
or maybe 1 more girl, i like to have daughters.
daughter will help to massage her daddy when daddy is tired.

we will hav our own house. not too big. i hate the feeling of emptiness. a normal house will do. i wan to hav my mum staying wif me. i wan to take care of her. if my mother in law wan to, she could stay wif us too.
age people need lots of attention and care. i will love her mum as much as i do to my mum too.

and i love to hav dogs of our own. which can help to cheer up the house. i love big dogs. not tiny lil paris hilton those.

will mumble more in the future.

I'm sick =(

yea, I'm sick, once again. this time lil asthmatian n fluen come n lawat me at the same time, beh tahan@.@

again, dis had been a hard week for me, after all i've to go throughout the week...again, assignments and tests n quizes attempt their very best to push me to a limit, and c how i'm going to jump across the wall, a fuckin' barrier between a dead me and a breathing me.

"have fun in your first sem, cuz u going to suffer a lot, and a lot in the 2nd n 3rd sem"
victorvictorvictorvictorvictorvictorvictorvictor(my long-lost-contact-senior Victor, 2008)

i think this is it, isn't it? this is the suffer he mentioned before, right?
anyway, i still haven't reach my limit yet. come on, i still fighting. although i lose a lot, but u see, i'm still surviving, don't i?

everytime i try to start my blog, involuntarily, i will start with: I dunno.... It seems to be my way to escape from any kind of responsible and try to put the blame on my innocence.

i dunno why i do that,
i dunno how come i make this decision,
i dunno why i behave this way.

yes, lots of i dunno,
and in fact, i know.

i know, i can do it better. i know, i still hav the fire in me. i know, i know i knew it.

although i'm sick, i try very hard not to let it knock me down. i still attend classes as usual, eat as usual, and study very hard as usual. i try to forget the fact i cant breath normally (thanks to my asthma) and cant c things clearly (my recent illness, dunno why) , and lost most of my sence (thanks to flu). i love the way im treating myself now. it make me feel like im a superman -- with limited health, of cuz.

throughout this week, a number of people had let me down.

"after all that u had put me through, u think i'm going to despite u. but in the end, i wanna thank you, cuz u make me tat much stronger. "
Stronger, Christina AguileraStronger, Christina Aguilera Stronger, Christina Aguilera

yea, this is wut i wanna say. i dun feel anything, seriously. i still hav my life as usual, i still behave like the old me, i'm still me. the way u do on me just make me realise how realistic u r. i wont ask for anything from u, anymore. i wont. and i hope i can fly soon, and pls, i dun wan to be in the same uni wif u, or even the same part of australia, pls dun.

just so fed up. but i gotta say, family is something which can always cheer me up.

I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
Cuz I’m being taken over by the fear

lilyallenlilyallenlilyallenLily Allen -- The Fear

At first when I see you cry,
yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile
At worst I feel bad for a while,
but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

lilyallenlilyallenlilyallenLily Allen-- Smile

my weekends

had a miserable week -- thanks to chemistry test, and ausmat cafe as well-- and I can't think of a way to release myself other than.......(fill in the blank please :P)












DEFINATELY NOT READING =.=












AND FORGET ABOUT SLEEPING >.<













ALMOST RIGHT, BUT NOT WATCHING MOVIE ^.^













HAHA, CLUBBING???













NO! IS MENYANYI!!!













haha...had some really great moments with my roommates n others. And out of sudden, I start to feel like I belongs to them, but not clubber.

Haha, I'M slowly becoming GOOD BOY =.=

I screwed up...

I've working really hard for Chem, starting from last week.
Really memorise all da important things, even some which are not been mentioned in test book but in revision book.
But I screwed up.
Food poisoning.
Prawn allergy.

During the test, I sweated like I've never have before. I spent most of my time, trying very hard to wipe away the fluid covering my forehead and those blocking my views.
Stomach was pain like hell.
Head was like there's a huge stone inside, swinging here and there, knocking my skull.
I can only fill in all the spaces in the test paper, with anything that cross my mind at that moment.

If I wasn't work that hard before, I wont feel anything.
But this time, I really work for it, and failed to prove anything.
Thank you.