Who give you the right to judge me?

I've long thought about whether should I write about this or not. But, I won't going to keep silent this time. Whatever that is going to happen, just let it be.

There's someone in your life, which you think can be a good friend of yours, turns out to be the one who is against you the most. Friend is someone who stand by you, give you support, share your feeling and emotion.

He should be someone who give you a hand when you fall.
Someone who try to cover up your imperfection in order to avoid other people look down on you.
Someone who feel happy for what you achieved in your life.
Someone who try to comfort you when you failed in something in your life.
That's what a friend do.

I don't need mockery.
I don't need jealousy.
I don't need hating.

Imagine you in my position. What will you feel when you get a bad result, and when you are hoping someone so-called "friend" can at least not to say anything to make you feel worse, actually making a tease on you.

Yes, that doesn't feel good. Friend shouldn't do that. Even as a joke. And that doesn't sounds like a joke.

For a real Chinese like me, we believe in karma. What goes around comes around. At this point, yes, you are doing better than me. But who know, maybe next time, you still above me, or I'm doing better than you. That's life.

Even if I'm doing better than my friend, I still hope my friend can also achieve what they want to achieve. I think that's what a friend should be.

Correct me if I'm wrong.

p/s: Credit to Wei Lun who tried to make me feel better. I really appreciate that. And I'm quite sad that we are most probably will not get into the same uni. But as a friend, I feel happy for you. =)

Give me a break

The feeling is getting stronger. Hopefully I won't explode before the whole thing push me way too far.

I have the need.
I have the will.
I don't have the guts.

Everything I see is you. Every moment I can't think of anything else but you.

I'm starving.