Going back tomorrow

hate it, hope i can feel happy later on. Will reach KL first then only go back shah alam. See if got chances, then go walk walk before go back to the place of hell.
Ipoh, i will be back soon.

Saturday

anderson......who cares bout u???sushi is the main attraction okay??????

big head yunn....occupy the whole screen....hahahah!!
call me rainie yang.....lolzzzzzz
really love my expression....funny!!!!
attention: my hand juz accidentally at there, im not garuING!!!
anderson~~~~

Do i look like good, innocent boy next door??? hahaha....in fact im still so!!!
Connie, Yunn and Anderson in our primary class room....time flies...edi 8 years....
Dunno since when, blackboard was dissapear from my life already....hahaha
Look so professional.....im so busy with my phone la...hahaha!!

From now on, i will enjoy my life, i will make my life as colorful as possible.

Hang out with my primary school mates, really enjoy tat really much, really didnt think of the sad thing at all. Feel happy with my progress now, will get rid of tat soon.

Im happy:-)

When you try to get know a new friend, make sure you are ready to accept the consequences for being exposed to the outer world.

When the friend that you knew always ready to share your feelings, always talk sweet words to you, make sure you can diffrentiate what kind of friend is this.

When the friend ask for further relationship, make sure you love him/her as a lover, and not a way of yours to thank you him/her for always be with you when you are down and sad.

When you try to be serious in a relationship, make sure you are willing to take the risk that you are the only people serious in the particular love thing.

When him/her tell you they are tired in the relationship with you, let it go, do not think to fix the relationship. You are being take for granted. Forget about it, be happy :)

Anderson for sales now. One night = RM make me happy.

Going back tml~~~

TML im going back to ipoh lo~~~~
Home sweet home~~~~~~~Im lovin it!!!!
Anyway, just had my math test today...as usual, i cant do most of it, but now im like immune to it already.
What goes around, comes around, right??? I guess....
Count down at Ipoh, with my mum n my family....really cant imagine hw my life would be if i hav no support frm my family, especially my mum...She is the only person who make me feel wan to study well to give her a better life. For my family, i will continue the stupid pharmacy thingy.

Will be coming back to KL in sunday nite, anyone wan to find me yamcha, pls call me~~~~
always there for u, wakakakaka.....

My life?

Got computer study test today, sucks...i didnt even noe wut im writing of, juz simply write something on it. I hate to b such student, always feel stupid n helpless.

Life doesnt comes as it shud be. Im confusing now: am i the 1 who can make u happy?am i really suitable for u? the more u treat me well, the more i feel bad. stop it, i cant breath. i hope to escape from all these, i wan to back to normal, everything back to the place wer it shud be look like. everything back to the normal position. no more u and me, no more me n him, only me, only u , only him. i really confuse, im such a jerk, i noe tat. people say im cheap, can easily hav sex with ppl hu r interested to me. i dun really care now, im wut? i also dunno.

hope i can die , sooner or later

今天回去了...

晚上七点半的巴士，回到shah alam大概11点...
很不开心，希望我能熬过来。

夏日八度！！！

看到了...很后悔没有去到现场啊！！现场一定high翻了的...
萧敬腾超厉害的，新发型也很适合她，很像狗狗啊，可爱到...>.<
元卫觉醒也让我回忆起当初喜欢他们的时候，夏天的风唱得很可爱，是元介果然很帅勒！...
除了大马帮的歌手阵容有点比较逊色，尤其是john,舞王舞后都到齐了，他还要表演舞曲...看了我就很想为他掉眼泪了...总的来说，这一届的很不错就是啦~~~

王子的新衣，下一次就变成我唱k的必唱歌曲啦，哈哈！！

明天回去了,不要.....很多考试，很多assignment，很没有mood...

肥仔

从shah alam回来怡保只不过短短一个星期，我明显的变肿了不少。
是真的变肿了，我的脸每次在我胖了的时候是最快有成效的，眼睛变小了不少。

不是我爱美啦，每次都给别人嘲笑我是面包，虽然已经习惯了，但还是有点不爽的嘛！
但是这次不同了，这次我可以很大声地说：我是肥仔，我很开心做肥仔！

家里好吃好住。醒来了就吃，吃了就看电视，看电视时就要吃零食，看完了就做其他事：上网，写日志，然后还是：吃，吃，吃~~~
好爽啊！！而且还是餐餐猪肉的，现在我才发现，世界上最美味的食物，就是有猪肉的食物！！
爽到。。。

我是肥仔，吹啊？！

Thursday edi...

Wuwuwuwu....today is thursday edi...
goin to reach sunday really soon....i dunwan go back S.ALAM!!!!!
wan to graduated soon frm there,fas fas go to either australia or IMU!!!

anyway, go through some articles frm recom, seems sem1 is most relaxing, bt now i edi stressed out like hell....
wut if i get to fly??? hw bout my mama,mei mei, popo, people i care of, frens of mine?
wut if i couldnt get to fly? hw other ppl will look at me? as a loser?
really scare...and nw edi lose in all my study, cant make up my mind to study at all...

kill me softly pls, i really hope to die.

问米

今天很早起来，去问米。
爸去世了已经一年多。上次妈去问时，“他”叫妈下次带我们去。
从来没有这样的经历，很不知所措。
结果有点平静。我不是很相信。

问米的，看来不是很知道我爸爸的情形。我爸应该知道的事，他都不是很知道。
我爸从来不叫我儿子的。
我爸知道我现在在那里读书的。
我爸知道我跟妈的家现在在那里的。
我爸很多事都知道，他很多都不知道。

但是我妈跟我妹很相信，我妹哭到眼睛都红了。
其实，我不是很想知道到底是不是真的，我无所谓。
因为，最终要是我们现在还活着的人，能够好好的活着，缅怀过去，再坚强活下去。
我的妈妈，能够好好地哭出来了，所有的不安，所有的不舒服，都哭了出来。
我的妹妹，也哭得很大声，所有的不开心，所有的不舍得，都哭出来了。

爸爸，我们会好好的。

Pictures i promised....

Ladies n gentleman, pls give big big clap to the tokoh SPM---Tong Kah Seng!!(ceh.....)
Me and Kirstine(long time never meet up wif her edi...)
Sigee and me....( she is goin Japan at same time wif me flyin to australia...)
Watever la, laugh as loud u wan, i like selfshot anyway~~~
my usual dinner at sucks cendana....hate the curry, always make me cirit-birit>.<

:-)

not really like this symbol, reminds me of sth :-)
today , is the one month anniversary , ever since we get attached.
still rmb when is our first msg? 21 of April
:-)
when is the first date i say yes to u? 13 of July
:-)

Never bein treated so well be4, thanks for everything.
Everytime wen im tired, u r there.
Everytime wen im cryin, u stay wif me.
Juz stay wif me, say nothing, juz listen to me cry n cry n cry.
:-)

I am not alone anymore, im happy.
I guess.

Moody again

Gloomy tuesday, i really hate to wait.
3 more days to go, then i can leave this sucks place n get bak to my lovely hometown----IPOH!!
I really feel dunno wut to do here with all the tension with me. Everyone workin so hard, i wan to be like them, too. But i have no energy to do so, nt i wan to give up, i juz dun hav any energy.
As usual, i get back my math test paper, cant even passed it, again n again, weakest among all.

Do you ever had the feelin of helpless?
Tats wht i feelin nw.
Dunno wut to do, tried hard? Nt like i never done be4, is my hardwork still cant help me to do better.

I always wan to escape frm all these problems, too many things in my mind.
I cant.

When can i live like wut i did in IPOH?
why shud my life get so much complicated ever since i study in S.Alam?
Im a simple guy, i juz wan to do what i shud do, cant?
why shud everything not happening as wut it shud look like?

I miss u so bad, wut can i do?
I doin bad here, i cried again n again.

Moody

I get back my chemistry paper, failed, as expected.
Dunno wut else i can do, mayb go die.
Dun try to affect my mind again, im enuf of confuse, i need do decision, tats the thing i hate the most.

可惜不是你

可惜不是你
陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你
牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

Im Back>,<

Back to study again, sienzzz
Hav a hmm.... weekends, dunno wut had i done all these days, juz simply dunno wut the hell is going on>.<
First, i get back to Ipoh at friday, den very fas suddenly till nite time edi...
At saturday morning, i bak to my former school for the Hari Anugerah thingy.I get to b the Tokoh Pelajar SPM again, quite sombong now, wakakakaka...took some pic again, but now im in com lab, juz upload it later la>.<
Meet many of my juniors and teachers, all feel i changed alots edi...Hmm, dunno la, even myself also cant recognize me now, everyday doin the thing that i dunno if i shud do or not, so bore wif it. Cant really catch up my study recently, as i always move away frm hostel during weekends, wut ppl had done during weekends is study, study n study, and wut i've done is play, play n play only...
Sunday meet up wif J, dunno hw to say, but i feel more relief actually.
Hope my days will b better.