Eyes

I hope to share some of my thoughts. Might be uneasy for some people. But again, it's just me.

Monogamy:

Human being is nothing but another animal. Although some might argue that we are different with animals -- in the sense that we were, are the ruler of the Earth, and that should differentiate us with other living organism. But when it comes to our life activities, we are actually nothing different with animals: moving, feeding, mating.

So, why bother to follow what the people in the earlier age set for us, the rules that make them felt they are actually on a higher class of the biology hierarchy? Why should we do something that is against the nature, when there's nothing called monogamy in animals world? Here comes, there goes. It's just that simple. Why should we force ourself to keep to one mate, while we know that we can't make it until the end of our life? Why should we pretend like we are satisfied with the so-called the one which complete your life, when we know that one's life can never be completed with one mate?

People always want vows from their mates: till death do us apart. What happened to those who are seperated, but there's no one's death to be blame on? Again, what keep them apart? There's million of excuses given, but there's only one reason to explain: not suitable. Yes, they are being honest, and instead of keep their marriage for zillions of reasons, they choose one common solution: divorce -- which is absolutely unnecessary for animals. Marriage is redundant, so do divorce. Never start it, and there will be no ending.

With this, I didn't neglect the importance of the role of parents. Yes, they created their successor, and unnaturally, it seems to be their responsibility to raise the children, and give the children all they need in order to grow them up -- from a meatloaf to a complete adult. But yet, it doesn't mean that the parent should give up their right to look for their other mate, that might produce new sparks in their life. Since when, good parenthood = monogamy? And since when, this relationship is always right?

Again, it is the arrogancy of the human nature. We refuse to acknowledge the fact that we are just an animal. And thanks to our arrogance, we lived our life, the life after we met "the one", solely with the urge of responsibility and loyalty to keep us living, and the natural needs of us, the animal side of us, which requires the feed of better mate, are being subsided. Yet, with the arise of the awareness of people nowadays towards the unjust of this social rule that was sadly being set and followed for centuries, more and more people refuse to settle down, more and more married couples divorce, more and more people begin to get behind the ugly side of monogamy. They begin to realise, that had no longer fit in today's society -- correction, it never fit.

Already Gone

This is the title of a song I recently addicted to it. Get into my heart, in some way.

As many of my friends claimed, I had long abandoned my blog ( in the sense that I didn't post picture, that's ridiculous for me anyway)...so I've decided to just upload all those pictures in my phone, regardless of their topic, although I should post in their relative post...

This is when I followed Panda back to Kampar. I pretended as their student and tried to sneak in...which turned to a failure. All students were starring at my too-stupid t-shirt, saying that: Sorry girls, I am G*Y.

At the same night, Panda and his friends all went crazy -- suggesting to have late supper in PENANG. Just like that, we went all the way from Kampar to Penang, just to eat CHAW KUEW TIAO, and go back straight after that. Sigh. 6 hours sitting in the car. Imagine that.

Attempt to take a overview picture, failed as well.

Take a closer look at this picture I took. U will be surprised with what you going to see.

I woke up at god-damn-5-am just to listen to Azwan talking in some language I can't understand. HA Ha.

Outing with Jamie and Steve. Missed to give Jamie a farewell hug before she departed to Perth. Don't worry girl, will see you in Aussie next year!!!

Some cam-whore of mine before balik kampung. Ignore it pls :P

The white short pants I've longing. Thanks to Malaysia's Mega Sales.

My goddamned CK perfume. Guess I have no choice but to drink perfume for the next whole month.

My usually unusual download speed in my college. Sometimes it even reached 400kbs in the night...TAK TIPU!!!

This is the only thing I did when I back to Ipoh this sudden holiday.

Waiting for it ....*winks winks*

And the product....DELICIOUS!!!!

Thinking to get a tattoo on my back. My mum only allow me to do it after the final exam. Sigh.

This it it.

Gals ( perhaps Nadiah will lead the crowd), scream your heart out when you see this.

i fancy you
i like you
i love you

and you'll never gonna know about this, cuz I will never tell u.

I still hope to see u around me :-)

In memoir of you

Again, you disappoint me =(

That is so predictable of you. Out of nothing, you appeared in my life.
Left your scent in every part of me.
Hate them, hate them for smell so nice. Hate them for being so you. Hate them for, they do not leave once you're left.

And they mingled around my body, that's so you. They totally changed who I am, who I think I am, who people think I am. When I look into the mirror, each and everyday, I can't see myself, but you.

No one else, but you.
I never care about grooming before.
I never like to sing so much before.

I never love to drink so much before.
I never love to club before.
And I've never thought I can be this slut before.

That's so you.

You really deserve a big round of applause. Perhaps, for manage to totally alter my path of life, my everything. From a zero, I turned to a negative. I am walking your path, doing what you will do, feeling what you will feel.

And I miss you.

Regrets of a shopaholic

Calvin Klein black and white logo jacket......................rm 305
ZARA black sweater.................................rm 199
Polo Haus t-shirt...........................rm unknown

why i wan to jimat those money, while i dun feel happy at all even the money is with me now...
TML muz get those!!!!

It's back.

It's been half a year.


Six months passed.


27 weeks gone.


182.625 days ended.


4383 hours of waiting.


And finally,













MALAYSIA MEGA SALES IS BACK!!!













I can't find any word other than excited to describe my feeling right now. How many times I've abandoned silver lining coated jacket of TOPMAN, white leather shoes of ZARA, deep-v sweater of SEED, khaki short pants of CALVIN KLEIN, deep blue polo shirt from RENOMA, countryside short sleeve shirt from POLO, white sling bag from Lacoste, etc, etc, and etc. Every time I passed by their display windows, everytime I cried deep inside my heart, silently wondering why those brands have to be so mean to me...

Which comes to an end, until tomorrow.

SALES!!!

Grab grab grab!!!

Big Bang

I can't believe I've been through so much events in one schooling day.

First, I woke up at 9.45am. And my ethic class supposedly starts at 10.10 am.

Bang.

With hair unset and face unwashed and everything, I had my simplest breakfast and pack my bags, get on to my bike and rushed to class. I even planned what to lie to my lecturer when I was late to get into class: stomach ache.

And the next thing I realized was: there's no ethic class on that day, for no reason.

Second BANG.

That was my only class on friday. And because of that class, I decided not to go back to Ipoh on thursday. How should I feel for that? Ok fine. I try to convince myself that I still have other reason to keep me in Shah Alam for the weekend: I have to pass up my assignments to my biology lecturer, plus this is only the second week eversince new sem started. Well, I feel a bit better after that.

And then, that was at 10.30 am. Since the time after that dissapointment was still quite early, I've decided to go for the Pesta Jualan in Seksyen 28. The advertisement in newspaper make it look so appealing: Adidas, Renoma, Voir, Hush Puppies... I thought this is going to be some warehouse sales, and regardless the distance from my college to that place, which is more than enough for me to reach Subang Jaya, I went for it.

Which turned out to be another disappointment. Those stuff in that so-called pesta jualan was shit. Those so-called branded outfits were even more expensive than in shopping mall. Not to forget that those were so so so last season things.

Third bang.

Anything la. I have nothing to lose but get more tanned and some petrol wasted only. I'm fine! The time was about 12pm when I back to my hostel. And Vivien messaged me to ask me whether to go to Pyramid later or not. After the consideration on both the allowance crisis and dull-life crisis, I reckon the second one was more urgent and need serious attention. Since the time was still early, I watched 50 First Dates, by Adam Slander and Drew Barrymore. Typical love story but with a really interesting setting of characters.

Then, the time was about 2pm. After took a bath and get changed, I went to meet up with my college friends in Pyramid for ice-skating. When I reached there, some gals went to hunt for socks, while me, Vivien and AZ went to Giant to buy food and drinks. Since that night I'm going to Oblique, I went to buy my favourite drink -- Long Island to add to the fun of the night. Just when I was about to pay for my drink, the security came to me. Guess what, he asked to check my ic.

Hello, do I look under age to you, Mr.Security??? And why you give me that reproach look? I'm not a criminal okay...=(

Forth BANG.

Despite all the bang-bang, we finally made it into the ice-skating. That was a long winding skating, with lots of falls and wrenched ankles. That was fun, though. And the gals were really fast learners, and at the end of the day, they actually can skate by their own without get close to the wall. And yea, me and AZ managed to spot some eye candies in that pool, which are really hotilicious!

Then, after dinner in Pizza Hut, we moved to Asian Avenue, opting for....DANCE DANCE REVOLUTION! It was a crazy game, as newbie like us who can't even tell the differences of the four indicator on the screen, have no sense of music and such, dare to go on to the dancing machine and making fool of ourselves in the middle (or in this case, the top) of the Sunway Pyramid...obviously, we are shameless. And the most humiliating part fall on the last. When they moved on to the drum hitting machine, we started to shout out the beat of the game, as if they can only hit the drum with the help of our yelling.

MIDDLE! MIDDLE! SIDE! SIDE!

And the time was at 10.10 pm. I rushed all the way back to my hostel in Shah Alam, wanting to get ready for the next event, before I get trapped in the hostel after 11pm, where the curfew is reached. Believe me or not, with my Malaysia made motorbike, I actually got back to my hostel at 10.30pm! What a record! After took a bath, get my clothes on, contact lens put on, hair set and smell nice, me and another 2 more friends get all ready to go to club. And it was at 11.10pm.

We reached Oblique at 11.45pm. On the way to Oblique, I finished the whole bottle of Long Island and starts to be quite active then. As expected, there wasn't really a lot of people in the club at friday night. The dance pool was empty, despite the fact that there already quite a number of seafood looking creatures in the club. Everyone was pretending to be goody-goody and not to move further from their tables. And when I was at the bar, trying to get some drinks for my friends, the manager of the club come to me and said:

Get these drinks to table no.4, fast fast!

That's it. I stood still there, still trying to figure out what's happening. Then, I started to look around: the waiters there were all in their early 20s, wearing white shirts with black ties -- which appear to be almost, but not exactly the same as my outfit -- which ultimately telling me that, I dressed up like a waiter.

Fifth BANG.

Ignored this. I get back to my friends there, trying to get my mood recovered. Since I was drunk a little bit, I easily get carried away with the musics played by the DJ-- although those songs were not really well mixed, with many songs played over and over again. Finally, at the time around 1.30am, everyone started to get excited, and the dance pool finally have some people filled in. I dragged my friends to go in the pool with me, and we danced like there's no tomorrow...or in a wider term: we danced our heart out. When I get onto the white stage, there's a malay, which you can easily tell that he is a gay from his dance move and outfit, started to get close to me. He danced at my back and put his hand on my shoulders, grabbing my back. Okay...this is a club, so I won't berkira so much with you. I turned around and slowly move to the other side, and I think he knew that I wasn't flattered by his flirting. A sissy gay abuse.

Sixth BANG.

Anyway, I still able to enjoy myself, with other better quality of flirting and naughty dance happening after that, which I'm not going to describe it in detail here. =P At the time of 3am, we moved out of the club, and headed to McD for some post-clubbing meal. After the McD, the time was already 4.45 am, and we went back to our hostel -- how? haha, imagine yourself.

That's it. My big bang bang friday~

URGGGG

I slept quite early last night, about 11.30pm. Wanting to wake up earlier to go for some light exercise or something else.

Then, I woke up at 11am. What-the-fuck, I hate my time being wasted in sleeping. Not like you can get your body toned-up or your beauty get enhanced in sleeping, like other sleeper claim to be. So, I woke up at 11am. Most of my morning time, gone.

Then, here comes the worst part. I on my phone. As usual, 10++ missed calls and few messages. Sorry for not getting the calls answered, and those messages replied. I always did that, wonder why I'm so mean.

And then, just when I thought I'm the meanest person in the entire universe, someone had actually just overrun me -- WeiLun.

Message from Wei Lun:

Bio Class at 2 pm.

Holly shit. That means I only have 3 hours left before the class starting. And I have pack up everything from what I left in Klang for 3 days, and ride them all the way back to Shah Alam, then back to class again. What the fuck.

Madam...U r so cruel. *sob sob*

I'm so sleepy right now...

This is a random post of what I've been doing for the weekend.

Friday:
Erm, my classes were cancelled. So, I slept until 11am. -.-
After that, watched Confession of A Shopaholic and Wild Child. Some people asked me what lesson I got from the movie about big spender. And my answer is:

Next time, we should go for designer sample sale. You can get 50% off from Gucci or Yves Saint Laurent.

Well, that's the truth what...

Then, I went for Ice-skatting with Azwan. Accidentally...(not accidentally, but she came to find us) bumped into VV and ZHan. Felt sorry for said something that hurted VV, although I don't mean it, at all. Everyone, please bear in mind that I don't mean everything I said, or I will say. Cuz I don't think twice before I say anything. I say, simply because I want to say.

Anyway, back to the ice-skatting. We bumped into Hidayah and her friend ( i'm so sorry, though I knew that gal for some time, but I never knew her name...) I have to say that I'm getting better and better in skatting already. But I miss the time when I can't skate at all, so I get to bump...i mean real bump into people I'm fancy at. Two people bumped and roll and roll and roll together on the icy floor...get wet wet....phew, I sounds so wrong-.-

Saturday:
As usual, I woke up at 11 something. After collect my laundry at dobby, I meet up with Azwan and Ariff in Ole2. Then, I went back to Klang to celebrate my cousin's burfdae. Had the burfdae party in Neway, Subang. I love the buffet there. And it is so cheap:

RM 40++ for a person, included buffet!!!

That's it. My weekends ended like this. Boring.
I'm so sleepy right now.